The Time Traveller: A Poem

I wonder if you can tell what this poem is based on. This was an assignment for my Literary Analysis class, to write something that contains the tone of, "I've Had Enough", and after watching Steins;Gate, the character of Okabe inspired this poem. Keep in mind that it does contain spoilers. For those who have seen Steins;Gate, this is my interpretation of Okabe's thoughts in the beginning of Episode 23, when Suzuha is asking him to go back to try and save Kurisu. Enjoy!

I’ve had to watch my closest friend die
Many, no countless times

Within infinite versions of reality.

Finally, after sacrificing the one I love

I saved my friend.

Now, after suffering silently for weeks

You expect me to relive that?

To fix a past that shouldn’t have been broken?

I’ve overturned the past and it lead to despair

I nearly lost myself viewing my dearest comrade die

Now I have to watch my loved one perish?

This is what she wants

She knew she would die

And I don’t see any way around fate.

She lived because of a fluke,

Some senseless experiment in a run-down lab

And the consequence was the death

Of my companion in her place.

With every time reversal,

I was able to calculate my friend’s exact time of death

And watch it over

And over

And over

And over

And over again

The only change being the cause.

People seem to think that shifting the past will mend the future;

You can’t blame them, they’re ignorant.

They just can’t remember

How specious that act is.

I am the only keeper of those memories.

I know the past

The present

The future

And the alternatives

And I know firsthand

That time is not to be meddled with;

The only result will be pain

Of either yourself or others

By suffering the consequences.

I used to think that fate could be rewritten;

What a foolish, arrogant man I was.