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Fangirl February: Hachiman Hikigaya Character Review

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Introduction:
Characters and their interactions are normally what makes a show for me. Great characters can make a mediocre show with an average story good, but lackluster characters can make a show with a decent plot fall flat on its face This is something that comes into play with slice-of-life, romance, or drama shows especially, since they’re entirely character based. One of these particular anime is My Teen Romantic Comedy SNAFU, my favorite high school drama anime, and the main reason I love it so much is due to Hachiman Hikigaya, its protagonist. In fact, my liking for Hachiman has gotten to the point where he’s become my favorite male character in anime, and we’re here to analyze why. Sit back, relax, and read on as I talk about one of my most beloved characters, Hachiman Hikigaya.
General Character Overview:
Hachiman Hikigaya is, at first glance, not incredibly inspired. But, once you dig deeper into his characterization and actions, then you begin to uncover something truly special in his own weird way. Hachiman Hikigaya is a loner, and generally doesn’t interact with others due to every bad experience he’s had when he tries to become friends with others. The anime shows us how these instances affect him, and why he’s become pessimistic and anti-social. He was always kind of weird and outlandish, and had these expectations that, someday, he’ll have friends and a nice social life. However, as time goes on, Hachiman begins to lose trust in those around him as they keep on excluding and excluding him, to the point where he decides that he’s content with being a loner, purposefully excluding himself so he won’t be hurt by others. This was not helped by how he showed up late to high school. On the first day, as Hachiman was riding his bike to school, he ends up saving a dog’s life and gets injured in the process, staying in the hospital for a while. By the time he even attends high school, everyone’s already friends with everyone else, and this is the moment where he accepts how his life has turned out. This somewhat changes, however, when he’s forced to join the Service Club, where he meets Yukino Yukinoshita and Yui Yuigahama. From there, he uses his blunt and pessimistic mindset to help others with their social problems, even if it doesn’t always turn out for the best. Hachiman’s ability to observe his classmate’s behavior and decipher exactly what is wrong with a relationship is the best part of the entire show, mainly because he’s normally correct. He’s able to recognize faults, but when someone asks him for help, his response is normally hard for them to listen to because he never sugar coats anything. For example, my favorite scene in the entire show is in episode 12. There’s this girl who’s running the school festival, but completely slacks off and makes Yukino, the vice president of the committee, do all the work. However, when she’s supposed to speak in front of an audience, she has no idea what she’s doing or even what she’s supposed to say. Everyone around her tries to comfort her, but Hachiman realizes that she’s not upset over how she didn’t do her job, but because Yukino apparently stole the spotlight from her. So, he tells it to her without beating around the bush, using reverse psychology and forcing her to accept how she really didn’t do anything. Of course, all this does is anger everyone else, even though it’s the cold, hard, truth. This brutal honesty is what separates Hachiman from typical high school protagonists; it’s because he’s not afraid to speak his mind and doesn’t care who gets hurt in the process. But what keeps him from being completely unlikable are the small hints of how he wants to be social, and how his observations are normally spot on. Think about it: why would Hachiman even say anything to help these people if he didn’t care about them whatsoever? If he were really anti-social, he would just be quiet and not say anything. There’s obviously still some part of him that wishes that youth wasn’t a hoax, or that hypocrites didn’t exist, or that nice girls aren’t nice to him simply because they’re nice to everyone else, but at the same time he accepts reality and doesn’t believe it can change anytime soon. And, in my opinion, he’s probably the best character to come out of a high school anime. He is what makes SNAFU what it is, and the show would have failed dramatically had he been a generic main character.
Why He’s Featured in Fangirl February:
So after that long analysis, what is it about Hachiman that I like so much that I would call him my husbando? Clearly, he’s not typical husbando material, and the fact that he’s anti-social and blunt probably won’t go over too well with others. Well, personally, it’s because I can relate to his problems and how he tries to fix them. I understood his interior monologues about how hypocritical the world can be, and how most people put on a façade just for the sake of fitting in. I also respect how honest he is, even if it gets to brutal degrees at times, and how he just doesn’t care about what other people think of him. You know how earlier I was talking about episode 12 of this anime? Well, here’s something else to add to Fangirl February: it’s my favorite episode of anime of all time, solely because of that scene. The laconic delivery, perfect word choice, and the emotional response of everyone, including me, was enough for me to decide that Hachiman Hikigaya is my favorite character of all time, period. I can understand why people don’t like him; his pessimism probably won’t mesh well with people who are relatively happy and optimistic, or to others he may just seem like an ordinary, lonely protagonist. But, to me, personally, I was able to connect with him as a character on a level I never thought possible, and it’s hard for me to ignore my biased opinion towards him. He may not be a perfect character, but he’s my favorite, and for me, favorite is tantamount to best.
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So, I hope you enjoyed this second installment in Fangirl February! I’ll see you all for my next post, where I talk about Shiki Ryougi, my favorite female character! Until then!
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Update 2-7-15: Movies of the Month


For a media review blog that covers books, anime, and movies, I haven't really dedicated any time to reviewing movies I watch. So, to fix this problem, I've decided to make a monthly post dedicated to the movies I saw that month, recently or otherwise. I'll make my first post soon, covering a few movies that I saw in January and February. These will be short, quick-to-the-point, and without a scorecard. Until then! 
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Fangirl February: The Disappearance of Haruhi Suzumiya Review


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Every anime fan that has watched at least a couple shows has heard the name Haurhi Suzumiya. The show has set a standard in the community that shows just what anime can do with its weird situations and characters, sort of the “stereotypical anime” if you will. However, for all its strange stories and creative ideas, my main problem with the show was that it didn’t take itself incredibly seriously and really utilize these ideas to their fullest potential. This didn’t make the show bad by any means, though. Heck, ever since I decided to watch it again it’s been on my favorites list, and this problem is most likely due to my personal tastes. I’m normally not the biggest fan of episodic shows because the formula almost always remains the same, and this repetition makes the show predictable and boring after a couple episodes. The Melancholy of Haurhi Suzumiya follows this structure, but it worked somehow, since it managed to spice up the mysteries and situations the characters were thrown into each episode or two. The movie, on the other hand, is an entirely different matter, and it has changed my opinion of the franchise entirely. The Disappearance of Haruhi Suzumiya is currently my favorite anime movie of all time, but why is that? How did the movie rise above and beyond my expectations to accomplish this? Sit back, relax, and read on as I review the first topic of Fangirl February: The Disappearance of Haruhi Suzumiya. Be warned that some plot points from the original show will be spoiled, but nothing too major in the movie will be given away. With that out of the way, let’s get started.

Story:
Something that made the original series entertaining was the show’s ability to make ordinary activities feel large and heavy, using the plot device known as Haurhi Suzumiya. You see, Haruhi is somewhat of a god, at least according to Koizumi, and is able to control time and space. Don’t question it, you’ll just confuse yourself. Because of this, if Haruhi becomes bored, then the world ends, and the show utilizes this to make its events all the more exciting, but at the same time doesn’t overplay it. Now, imagine if the show removed that plot device, but still managed to keep its large scale without feeling forced. That is this movie in a nutshell. As the title suggests, Haruhi has disappeared, and on top of that, the world around our normally satirical main character Kyon is completely altered. His classmates are sick, Class 9 doesn’t exist anymore, all of his supernatural friends are now normal human beings, and Ryoko Asukura is sitting behind him when she should’ve been erased from existence. A bewildered and terrified Kyon basically spends the entire movie trying to discover who changed the world, and somehow change everything back to the way it was. While this plot does sound rather simple, the movie throws enough twists and turns into its story to keep you guessing and remain invested, and focuses more on the “how” and “why” rather than just trying to get Haruhi back. And, in my opinion, this relatively unassuming plot is one of the best I’ve ever seen. Every plot twist makes sense, every direction the show takes feels natural and fits into the story, and the pacing is near flawless. While some may think the pacing of the first half is too slow, I was never bothered by it, as it built atmosphere and showed how Kyon reacted to this new world, which is vital to understanding his motivation. Not to mention just how perfectly past events in the story tie into this movie. The movie explains to the audience what important events happened previously, and gives enough details so even people who haven’t seen the show can understand what’s happening. The reason all these events tie in together into this singular movie is to draw emphasis to the main conflict of the movie: whether Kyon wants to live a normal life in this new world or not, making this movie the perfect conclusion to the franchise. Now, I would discuss Kyon’s choice at the end, but that would take up too much time and would basically spoil the entire movie. My recommendation is, watch the movie, and come up with your own interpretations as to why Kyon made his decision, and what messages the author tried to convey through this choice. For me, I thought the author was trying to show how the world can’t be altered just to fit the needs of a singular person, because then you’d have to change the lives of everyone around you. To quote the Light Novel, “We all find ourselves wishing for a complete redo at some point in our lives, and all of us have dreamed about changing reality to suit our individual means. However, that would normally be impossible. And probably not a good idea.” (Tanigawa 154). In other words, life isn’t really fair, and no matter how much you want to change it, that’s how it is, and you have to learn to deal with it and move on. Not everything will go your way, but you should also find ways to enjoy what it is that you’re given, and know that people will be there to help as long as you say something. And, considering how crazy and strange the situations were in the TV series, you could say that this was the perfect message to end this franchise with. Oh, at least until The Disappearance of Nagato Yuki-chan comes out, but that’s a spin-off, so I’ll let it go. Is anyone else excited for it besides me? Because I sure am!
The story follows Kyon as he tries to figure out what happened to his old world
Characters:
Something that took me by surprise in this movie was how…different these characters felt from the original. Sure, their general personalities remained intact, but they felt a lot more human than the original series. Oh, in the TV show, they were fun to watch, but it wasn’t until I watched the movie that I managed to emotionally connect with any of them. Let’s start off with Kyon, the main character of the movie. Up until this point, he was mainly an observer of the crazy happenings going on around him and complained about not having a normal life. But now that he’s been thrown into an unknown situation where he’s the only person who can fix the world, and his supernatural friends are completely unaware of what’s happening, well…he panics. The first half of the movie shows how Kyon breaks down in desperation and fear, abandoning his sarcastic persona entirely. Then, as he solves the mystery, he begins to question whether he even wants to go back to his old reality, where all he did was complain and be thrown into chaos every day. This movie details his development from a spectator to someone who learns that he has to actively take part in these occurrences if he wants to remain safe and comfortable. He learns to take the initiative, and appreciate all the fun he’s secretly been having behind his complaints, which makes him a relatable character. You understand why he breaks down because he doesn’t know what to do, and as he scrambles for answers to his perplexing problems, you see that he’s not just some character who takes everything in strides, but a human who has no idea what to do in a time of crisis because he relied too much on his friends. This reliance also comes into play with the character of Yuki Nagato. In the show, Yuki was an expressionless alien who basically solved most of the SOS Brigade’s problems with her outstanding abilities, and while I don’t want to spoil the twist in the movie, well…let’s just say that can get tiring. However, I do want to clarify a misconception about her character. There’s a difference between character development and characterization. Character development is the author’s way of showing how a character changes, while characterization is the author’s way of displaying who a character is. Most people say that Yuki’s development in this movie was fantastic, and I don’t agree because she doesn’t really change over the course of this movie. Yes, she does subtly change in the series, but what this movie did was expand upon her character, using characterization to allow the audience to learn more about her and her problems. And, in that regard, the movie does a great job. The other SOS Brigade members don’t really get enough screen time to be considered part of the main cast, but I did like some of the ways these characters tied into their real-world counterparts. For example, in Endless Eight, Koizumi states that Kyon should whisper into Haruhi’s ear that he loves her, and while Kyon objects, Koizumi suggests that he himself do it. This seems insignificant, but then when you watch the movie, Koizumi in the new world is in love with the Haruhi of the new world. And, in the beginning of the TV series, Asahina states that she’s part of the calligraphy club, and that’s where she’s found later in the movie. It’s little touches like these that makes these character’s appearances worthwhile, and adds some more to their overall characters.
Yuki Nagato and Kyon
Presentation:
Kyoto Animation has made a name for itself by producing high quality shows in terms of aesthetics, so believe me when I say that this movie is probably the best in their entire lineup when it comes to animation. The lighting in this movie is breathtaking, creating a realistic atmosphere that focuses on the bleakness of winter with greys, tinted blues, and browns. This acts as a contrast to the original show, which was mainly bright and colorful. The backgrounds look gorgeous, with immense detail put into each frame. The movements are fluid for the most part, and the character designs are really good. I’d also like to mention the cinematography, as it really made some scenes stand out above the rest. As for music, I love this soundtrack. The songs are mainly renditions of classical music, with a few original songs thrown in. The soundtrack has a way of being relatively simple in composition, but is incredibly effective in setting the atmosphere and tone. My favorite track is Gyumnopedies Dai 1 Ban, and a link to the song will be featured in the description for you to check out. Finally, should you watch this in English or Japanese? My choice is, English, for two reasons. Firstly, there’s Crispin Freeman as Kyon. I’ve always liked his performance in the original series, but in this movie Freeman portrays Kyon perfectly in a time when his character is scared, desperate, and confused, and it’s hard for me to picture anyone else playing him. Secondly, Michelle Ruff as Yuki Nagato. Yuki’s character was very robotic and emotionless in the original, but Ruff’s ability to change her character into the shy and bashful version of Yuki was near flawless in this movie. Good job, English cast, good job.

Gyumnopedies Dai 1 Ban:

 
The presentation is plain fantastic
Why It’s Featured in Fangirl February:
So, why is The Disappearance of Haurhi Suzumiya my favorite anime movie of all time? Well, it’s a fantastic mystery, is able to be emotional, exciting, and intriguing, and finally, is human. Mystery is one of my favorite genres in all of entertainment. I’ve always enjoyed watching characters trying to solve capers, picking up clues and eventually coming to a conclusion, discovering who did what and how everything came to be. Unfortunately, finding a good mystery anime is rare. Most mystery shows aren’t about an overarching case, but more about episodic cases, like in the ever so famous Melancholy of Haurhi Suzumiya. Then, there’s the Disappearance of Haruhi Suzumiya, the movie that fulfilled my desire for a good mystery more than I ever thought this franchise could, and cemented itself as my favorite anime movie of all time. In all honesty, this relatively simple story is my favorite mystery in all of entertainment. Everything is just so beautifully executed, from the characters to the plot twists to the amazing presentation, and even some underlying themes that I didn’t pick up on during my first viewing concerning escapism and accepting reality. The characters, at least Yuki and Kyon, feel more realistic and sympathetic than they ever were before, and I can’t imagine the movie being written or presented any better. To make a long story short, this movie is what I wanted Haruhi Suzumiya to be, with a much more human touch combined with a wonderful story and a perfect presentation. There’s nothing else to it. 

Conclusion:
Overall, while the movie does have its flaws, like how the ending doesn’t really make sense when you think about it, I still love this movie unconditionally. It’s hard to find a mystery this well done, and, at least in my opinion, this is the best of the best. Now, let’s move onto the scorecard, where I will rate this movie based on its story, characters, presentation, and personal enjoyment. I give the story a 9.5 out of 10, for being slightly slow but very atmospheric with one of the best climaxes in any anime period. I give the characters a 9 out of 10. While Kyon and Yuki had significant screen time for characterization and development, and it was interesting to see the characters in this other world, it did feel like the characters except Yuki and Kyon were there for the sake of being there, as they didn’t really do anything. The presentation gets a 9.5 out of 10, because the animation is near flawless, the music is wonderful, and the English version is top notch. And, for personal enjoyment, I give this movie a straight 10 out of 10, because I can do what I want, and I love everything about this movie. As for the final score, I give The Disappearance of Haruhi Suzumiya a 9.5 out of 10, and a recommendation to watch it when you can.
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Alternate Anime Recommendations:
Patema Inverted
Hyouka
Well, that’s all from me. I hope you enjoyed this first post in Fangirl February! Join me next time for my character review of Hachiman Hikigaya! See you then!

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Anime Review: From The New World (Shin Sekai Yori)


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Science fiction is one of the most flexible genres in existence. There are so many creative ideas and messages that can be conveyed through science fiction, whether the story is about a future dystopia or in outer space. However, despite all of these creative opportunities, there are many science fiction stories that don’t actually try to say anything meaningful about their own subject matter. Instead, they opt for the “easy route”, rehashing old ideas and conforming to popular opinions. This is a problem that has also carried over into anime, unfortunately. Most science fiction stories in this medium feature mechs, rip off other ideas, or decide to use the concepts for the sake of comedy. While these don’t automatically make a show bad (ex. Patema Inverted, Waiting in the Summer), I can’t help but feel sad that the uniqueness of the genre has been lost somewhere. Sure, we’ve got brilliance like Ergo Proxy, Paprika, and Steins;Gate, but they’re the diamonds in the rough. This takes us to the topic of this review: Shinsekai Yori. This was a show that had received massive praise from the community for being the most original science fiction story in years (at least, from the small minority that actually watched it). So, I decided to give it a shot. Is Shinsekai Yori as groundbreaking as I was lead to believe, or was it a failure? Sit back, relax, and read on as I review Shinsekai Yori, or From The New World (for the sake of efficiency, from now on I’ll be referring to the show as Shinsekai).
The Setup:
Shinsekai takes place in a version of Japan that takes place around a thousand years into the future. Over time, humans have evolved, and now contain “Power”, which is a form of telekinesis. The people living there live peacefully in their “utopian” society (cough cough), using humanoid rats known as “Monster Rats” to do their labor for them. The show stars five children: Saki, Satoru, Shun, Mamarou, and Maria. We follow them as they grow up, discovering more about their seemingly perfect society and learning more about themselves in the process. Yes, this section was left incredibly vague, and yes, this was intentional. I went into this show pretty much blind, and that’s how I believe you should watch it too. The setup is quite unique, combining the supernatural with science fiction in such a distinctive way. Granted, it doesn’t sound like a huge epic story, but that’s not the point of Shinsekai; the anime, instead, opts for a more subtle narrative…maybe a little too subtle in some areas.
The story takes place in a world where people can use telekinesis, known as "Power"
The Characters:
I think I’ve stated numerous times previously that I prefer a character driven narrative over a story driven narrative. My reasoning behind this is because, if you don’t care about the characters, then why should you care about the story they’re going through? Unfortunately, the characters of Shinsekai are very lackluster, though there are a few exceptions. Firstly, there’s Saki, the main character of the entire story. She’s one of the better characters of the story and does go through very good character development, but her characterization, at least initially, is weak. She’s kind, naïve, and selfless, but her mental state is incredibly stable. That’s…kind of it. Though, her character development, as stated earlier, is excellent. Her naïvety fades over time, and she becomes more aware of her surroundings and the consequences of her actions. Not to mention how perfectly her development is tied into the story, which is absolutely astounding. This made her gradually more likable as the show progressed, but that still doesn’t excuse her somewhat bland personality. Next there’s Satoru, who’s my favorite out of the five main characters. Not to spoil the progression of the story, but seeing how he changes as he grows older is very interesting to watch. He starts off as a carefree jokester, then gradually evolves into someone who takes his morals and companions seriously as he becomes an adult. Next, there’s Shun. I felt like he was one of the weaker characters, but that’s due to his role in the story…which I won’t spoil…but I will say that this development does tie into the story, so it’s somewhat excusable. Then, there’s Mamarou and Maria. Mamarou’s very weak-minded and shy, while Maria is outgoing, kind, jocular, and considerate. While, again, they do tie into the story wonderfully, it was hard for me to truly care about them because their characterization was somewhat lackluster. They were still likable enough, but I wouldn’t call them favorites of mine. The other characters are fine, but then there’s one standout that I can’t talk about because spoilers. Let’s just say that, in the latter third especially, he is a very interesting and multi-dimensional villain that I actually ended up sympathizing with, which is something a villain hasn’t been able to make me do in quite some time. Overall, while there are no characters that I would consider worthless, it was hard for me to make a connection with the majority of them, which is a huge flaw for me.
From left to right: Saki, Shun, Maria, Satoru, Mamarou
The Story:
From the way I criticized the characters, you’d think that I hated this anime. Well, let me change that mindset and now I finally get to praise this show. Shinsekai’s story is absolutely phenomenal, and needs to be recognized as one of the best in the medium of anime. The world building and lore is fantastic, creating an intriguing and fleshed-out setting that always had me wondering what the show will do with it next. The pacing is slightly problematic, but in all honesty it never bothered me too much. However, the best part of the story is its structure and how it foreshadows everythingusing excellent subtlety. I love how the decisions the characters make in this show don’t always face repercussions until later on in the story, and the usage of time skips is very tasteful (unlike some other shows). The foreshadowing is unparalleled, and unfortunately I can’t explain why because of SPOILERS (it’s the nature of foreshadowing, what do you expect?). Then there are the themes. Oh, how I love the themes! The story has the typical, like the values of friendship and family, but then it has the atypical, like stereotyping, racism, narrow-mindedness, and how important it is to be a nonconformist. It reminds me of The Giver, in a sense, because the characters are brought to believe that their society is perfect when it is anything but. I should also probably mention that, unlike most anime, this anime was actually based off of a book. No, not a light novel, an actual book. No wonder it’s written so well. The only other anime I’ve heard of that’s a book adaptation is Another, which I haven’t seen but haven’t heard the greatest things about. Interesting, no? Finally, there's the ending. The ending is perfect. It's very beautiful, satisfying, wraps up all lose ends, and made me come close to crying. That is a feat.
The story is plain phenomenal
The Animation/Sound:
Ugh, we have to go back to criticism, don’t we? Produced by A-1 Pictures, the animation is…and believe me, I hate saying this...rather poor, especially since this is coming from a studio that is practically known for its animation. I may not like Sword Art Online or Saekano, but something I can’t deny is that they were animated pretty well. Speaking of, guess what anime aired at around the same time as Shinsekai and got the budget that Shinsekai deserved? Sword Art Online! I’m sorry, but it just angers me that A-1 obviously cared more about a show that they knew was going to be successful and make them tons of money than a show that has wonderful messages and some of the best writing I’ve ever seen. Onto the actual animation, the lack of shadowing on the characters makes them look rather flat, and the lack of coloring on the character designs makes everything look rather dull. The motions are somewhat clunky, but do look nice when needed. The character designs are pretty unique, but again, they look really flat without various colors and shadows. The backgrounds look decent, with some nice detail and atmosphere, but it’s nothing to write home about. The lighting does look really good at points, and the usage of silhouettes and contrast in color did astound me at points…when it’s not overdone. In episodes 5 and 10, a guest director handled the project, and those episodes have some of the worst animation I’ve ever seen period. The textures were weird, the character designs were changed, and the cinematography was terrible. Everything was unnecessarily zoomed up on, to the point where you can’t even tell what’s happening. Anyway, let’s move on to sound. The OST is quite good. I love how it makes everything sound so ethereal and ominous, using a variety of instruments and creepy child choirs. My favorite songs will be featured below. There are actually no opening songs, which is rare, but there are two ending songs. My favorite by far is the first ending. The song is so catchy and calming, and the animation is beautiful. The second ending is fine, and worth a listen. Finally, should you watch it in Japanese or English? I watched it in Japanese because I don’t particularly like Sentai dubs, so I can safely say that the Japanese dub is very solid. I have to give props to Yuki Kaji (Satoru), Risa Taneda (Saki), and Daisuke Namikawa (Squealer) for their wonderful performances as their respective characters, especially the latter third. If you want to watch it in English, go ahead, but it wasn’t for me.
Ending #1:
The animation can be brilliant at points, but is mostly pretty bad
Final Judgment:
I’m going to say something that you probably won’t expect, considering how harsh this review was at points: I love this anime. Yes, it has major flaws in nearly every category except in its story, but I still love it to pieces. And it’s for reasons I can’t quite explain. Normally, I can’t get myself to like stories that don’t have fantastic characters, but rules are made to be broken, I guess. Maybe it’s because every time it gets something right, it nails it right on the head. Besides, you know that you truly love a show when you’d readily admit to its flaws, but still love the show nevertheless. At least, that’s what I believe, anyway. I give Shinsekai Yori a 3.75 out of 5, and a recommendation to check it out. It may be flawed, but it’s worth watching despite that. But, like always, it’s up to you to decide your own opinions.
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Recommendations:
Ergo Proxy
Steins;Gate

I’ll be announcing what my next review will be during my February Special introduction. See you then!
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Book Review: A Fleeting State of Mind by Julia L. Mayer

Book Review: A Fleeting State of Mind
Something that I’ve noticed while reviewing books is that I usually limit myself to certain genres, and as someone who tries to keep an open mind, that’s bad. All I’ve been reading are terrible romance novels or halfway-decent dystopian books, and it feels like so long since I’ve read a book that I actually deem good. Then, I came across a book called A Fleeting State of Mind, via a recommendation from a follower. The book falls into the genre of “realistic fiction”, and has a heavy emphasis on psychology and depression. Normally, I don’t read these types of books, but this time around, I decided, “Why not?” So I sat down, read it from cover to cover, and gave myself some time to think about it. Was A Fleeting State of Mind worth me coming out of my comfort zone, or was it a huge waste of time? Sit back, relax, and read on as I review A Fleeting State of Mind by Julia L. Mayer.
The Setup:
The main character of the book is a therapist named Dr. June Gray, a woman in her thirties who ironically suffers from her own depression and psychological issues. She’s stuck in a static relationship with a robotic man named Phil, and her family isn’t incredibly supportive of her choices in life. Because of this, she lacks self-confidence, and therefore feels unable to do anything about her deadpan existence. The story follows her peregrination from depression as she finds different ways to move on from her old ways, meets new people, and gains more credence in herself.
The Characters:
Characters are always the most important part of stories such as this one. Since there are no huge battles, epidemics to fight, or a fast-moving story, the reader’s only means of investment lie in the characterization and character development. This book not only succeeds in this department, it blew any previous expectations of mine out of the water. I’ve become so used to simple motivations and personalities over time that I forgot about how complex characters are always the most relatable and understandable. Mainly, though, the main protagonist June carries the story, and I’m perfectly okay with that; the story is about her development, after all. As far as main characters go, she’s definitely one of the strongest I’ve seen in quite some time. Her characterization stems from her childhood: her parents favored her brother over her, and because of this she thinks herself to be inferior to others. She suffers from anxiety and thinks rather lowly of herself, which leads to intermittent bouts of depression. She’s trapped in a static relationship with Phi because she believes that she needs him, when in reality all he’s doing is holding her back. When she meets a man named Michael, however, and begins to write about her depression, she begins to change, but not to the point where she solves all her problems as the usual cliché states. She’s still anxious by the end of the book, but she grows to become more open and breaks out of her stale life, even if she only moves a little over an inch away. I also found it fascinating that, because of her career, she is fully aware of every single personality disorder she has, but ironically has no idea of how to fix them. This juxtaposition between the capable psychologist and the problem-ridden sides of June makes her feel very human, giving off the impression that she’s not perfect and just because you know what your problems are doesn’t mean you have the capability of fixing them. I think we’ve all dealt with a problem like this in our lives, right? Like, you know you have to finish your homework, but become so distracted that you forget about it? And every night you keep telling yourself to prioritize homework, but then the cycle just continually repeats itself because you keep on getting distracted? It’s like that, except in June’s case on a more personal level. Sometimes, it takes the intervention of another to help, which leads us to our next character: Michael. While not as complex as June, I still liked him quite a bit because of his supportive nature, and his characterization explains why he is the way he is. The side characters do their jobs, with my favorite side character being Annabelle, one of June’s patients. She serves as the exaggerated and stubborn version of June, who repeats the same mistakes over and over again because of her own anxieties in her life. She was a very interesting character, to say the least. Overall, I think that these characters are extraordinarily well written. Considering how the author is a psychologist herself, I’m glad that she used her knowledge to its fullest extent to create these incredible characters.
The Story:
Firstly, let’s start with the pacing. I thought that the book could be a little slow at times, but for the most part I was never bored while reading it. There were some clichés, like the crazy ex-girlfriend, but given Michael’s characterization as someone who sympathizes with somewhat insane people I didn’t mind it nearly as much as I thought I would. This actually proves why I think clichés can work as long as they’re executed properly, and in this book’s case, it certainly is. The main aspect that I love about this story, however, is how it delves into human interaction and how experiences are what makes you who you are. For example, June’s parents favored her brother and treated June as an inferior, so she grew up with those expectations of herself. The main message of this story appears to be that confidence in yourself is incredibly important to being happy and successful, as shown by multiple characters in the story: those without confidence are depressed and unhappy, while those who are satisfied with themselves are much happier. The book also shows how even the most confident people have their downfalls, though, because not every moment is going to be favorable for them, shown through June’s friend Emily. I love how the book tackles this concept, especially considering how there are so many people who lack confidence in this day and age. Overall, the story is excellent, with fantastic themes and an intriguing display of character interactions.
The Writing Style/Grammatical Errors:
I think that the writing style is very fitting for this story: very dry, straightforward, and filled with interior monologues, but in a good way. It gives the book a personality, which I rather liked. I also thought the way the book felt like a notebook, a very nice touch. There were no bothersome grammatical errors, so there’s nothing to complain about here.
Final Judgment:
This book is fantastic, plan and simple. While I can’t say that I enjoyed every second of it due to its pacing, I can say that from a critical perspective this book is well written, well researched, and is worth the read. I give A Fleeting State of Mind a 4.5 out of 5, and a recommendation to check it out. But, like always, it is up to you to decide your own opinions.
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